Another song written…


Sorry to have been away. I became violently ill by the guilty group’s black cyberstalkive specs all in foods, airborne, you name it. Get this too. They did this to me on Holocaust week. How convenient to vomit and vomit at bus stops.

Music. I sure miss it. I might be looking, too, for a piano teacher–as I may be able to learn it on my own; but a teacher would be nice. A real one. I’d like a teacher that can explain what “rests” are, etc. I’ve had about three phony piano teachers from churches–can you believe trying to work their way through explaining what “rests” are. I’ve also asked for help at a music shop up the road. No go. But for the guilty-group. Yep. Still out in the wind here with Federal cleaning up this illegal surveillance Federally declared April 28, 2015. Yahoo! Real swell. Any ways, trying to coordinate soon a trip to The Pentagon to see about all my belongings and vehicle stolen and my two cats. Ridiculous. It looks like it’s going to take the trip to get some where back into my life–none of this any fault of my own; and Federal’s protective equipment is making me just as nauseous. Are you ready for this. Federal tells me I’m the last decendent of Jesus Christ’s William Shakespeare-Sawyer, since the guilty, family included, kept my heritage from me. Guess what my real name is? Brenda Denise Bowen-Shakespeare. My middle name coming from Jesus’s mother: Mary Denise Shakespeare-Sawyer. I’ve got my form to update the change because, too, my decendents, with Federal aereal protective surveillance equipment would like for me to apply it. I am a cousin to my decendents.

A good thing is Federal tells me my poetry chapbook, Riverwalker has found a publisher.

Now…back to music and songwriting. I’ve draft-written a song and I’m still looking for a good beginner’s piano book.

Thank you to those following my blog for your patience. I’m still waiting for my housing having to sleep at bus stops and eat at churches, fine the churches but they’re illegally trespassed with infested cop props and the guilty that got busted last night for a gang-bang party setting off alarms at ex-Lawson Realty–three cop props of them beginning with #803.

My blog payment is due next month; and the guilty are doing anything to thwart a loan I need and my $619.00 due me from Federal County up the road at 25 Cottonwood now in Miller-Kelly, CA, the former Woodland, CA with twenty-four bus tickets from the past two months. An American Express credit card is suppose to be at a Federal mail slot for me at 1321 North C St., Sacramento, CA. I have to figure out a way to get there to get it, hopefully no thwarts.

Here’s a few danger-zone license plates for public consumption: 7XHS425/fake Rev. , 7848265/fake gardner, 7NYF243 classmate of the core guilty-group continuously blocking my every move with everything I do.

My  vehicle is still not back yet from Federal with all of its contents.

Can’t wait to hear some real music instead of all the guilty’s dubbed.  Thank you for hanging in there with me.  🙂


Waiting to write more music…


I’m told it looks good for temporary housing at one of the former locations of the ex-Holy Rosary Catholic Church, all Catholic Churches now obsolete due to the Dioceses thwarting illegally Jewish religion and practice. This week with an appointment this early afternoon, 1:00pm at the Ex-Cathedral of the Blessed Sacrament on 11th and J Streets. It would be great if I could get into the room today, as the weather is getting very cold, and sleeping on the asphalt at a place that has become dangerous (Loaves & Fishes) where I get my mail and unfortunately thwarts of phone messages according to the Department of Defense that makes people accept physical, emotional, mental, and verbal abuse, it would be much safer being able to get the room asap and I could start getting things back on track more.  What’s helped is learning about the Ex-Catholic faith and while doing so learning that Spanish and Chinese cultures enjoy collaborating/contributing to the Ex-Catholic faith.

I’m enjoying learning music from all three cultures. I’ve been taking notes for future songwriting development. You should see not only the time frame musically of where the songs generated from but also the artwork. The church is very ornate and distinguished. The paintings are beautiful with the artwork The church has a Baldwin piano in it in which a young girl was playing the piano; she played beautifully for the Chinese service. I don’t have an extensive family background in music, but I did have on the paternal side of my family an aunt and a late grandfather who grew up with the Ex-Catholic faith. All of what I have of them was in a small box, photographs, papers, rosaries, information on the both of them with the Catholic church etc.–anything that was them they took even my thesis that ex-Roseville cops set up with another criminal at 511 Encinal Avenue Roseville, CA 95678, a court-purchased property that the courts purchased for me. The illegal surveillance rape/molestation humiliation demonstration from ex-Roseville Police Department’s L. Cole, J. Guess, Theresa ,D./ K. Kato, Molly Buffington, Viggo Mortensen, Jodie Hallowes, Nichol,Nichole,Nicol Day, Mary Bowen/Mary Carr and others–you name it in the SCV0034413 Bowen v. Warren et al case and M-CV-0061815 and all cross appeals involved in it has a history behind it. L. Cole’s grandfather, a former cop with a history of the same illegal molestation/rape acts with Judge Sandra Day O’ Connor’s illegal arrest at a lake location, and a most recent finding found with singer/actress Bette Midler–L. Cole’s grandfather doing the same to her. A long time coming catching these criminals, Viggo Mortensen/Charles Manson is also responsible for the death of Bette Midler’s sister who was hit by a vehicle, and he is also responsible with setting up a rape/molestation situation with his son Henry Mortensen/Valentine Manson in which Ms. Midler’s other sister was raped.  There has been more that one rape/molestation episode with the same people involved in  four of my  illegal detainments, the same and/or relatives of the same people involving the same people. The Mortensen’s including Viggo Mortensen’s wife is also involved in art frame rape and domestic violence illegal surveillance art frames, videos and in person rape and molestations threats by way of impersonating other people verified Department of Defense.  She slept on a corner sidewalk at 14th & C Streets near my court-purchased film studio at 1425 C Street, Sacramento, CA.

Classmates, Valentine Manson/Mendy Bates, Charles/Manson/Jodies Hallowes/Viggo Mortensen, all the ex-cops involved in the 4th illegal detainment with an ex-relation who recently set up impersonating an early morning penal ejaculation masturbation session that threatened rape while impersonating an African American male will receive the death penalty. He drove up in a vehicle, got out of the vehicle, propositioned me, took out his male organ and proceeded to ejaculate on me and said “do you want to be raped?”He did this different intervals at different times. The ex-relation hit me twice on two other occasions and ran over me with a cart while having to sleep on the asphalt of Loaves & Fishes. Weave was called twice to report his incriminating behavior with threats to bomb their building. Asking for cigarettes and Michelle, referring to Michelle Jenkens, who held me at weapon point with my storage belongings, accepting $40.00 for impersonating U.S. Marshalls with ex-cops Berkowitz, Uribe, etc. (a tripped-up illegal surveillance and cyberstalking inside the crosswalk “click-on” knob (militia machine gun military firing), etc. La Donna E. Williams/April E. Williams, Nichole/Nichol/Nichol Day and WebBank/Avant Credit, after Jodie Hallowes did, left after I dialed the Department of Defense phone number and reported by way of Federal registration. A witness to the gruesome sexual battery charge, etc. called Maryhouse to inform what the person saw. Again, Viggo Mortensen is involved as well as the other individuals named. Mary Carr, also known as Mary Margaret Bowen, along with my mother’s approval and father’s and with several other family members’ support, guilty of the same illegal surveillancing  and cyberstalking wrongdoings, supported, with several set up topless EKGs for Federal Permanent Illegal Surveillants as with all ex-police departments involved  at the ex-Sacramento Main Jail, horrifying fake EKG settings where I had a sibling baiting breath over seeing any breast, pelvic area etc. along with Mendy Bates, Jodie Hallowes  engaging in the touching of our genitals as we were illegally humilatingly examined, along with another cousin, guilty T.J. Woliver who illegally set up another illegal detainment with Charles Mnson and Patricia Cowen, etal, at Ford Dealership. Maricopa County is also responsible for not following through procedure as is the State of Arizona for not aiding in several cries for help with this person’s constant death threats, those that also killed his parents, those that continue to threaten murder by him, Mendy Bates, Jodie Hallowes, Viggo Mortsensen, John Collins “Constable,” etc. on Federal Permanent Illegal Surveillants’ lives and innocent people’s lives in general. Bates also refuses to stop. She’s got to be, according to The Department of Defense, one of the most cruelly, horrific people around; and she is.

The Justices/Judges involved in getting rid of the illegal surveillance and cyberstalking, the Scottsdale Police Department also didn’t come to the rescue of the two-time restrained and/or any of the responsible parties due to their getting caught just the same.  The elementary school who didn’t want to hired him  in the first place was due to knowing he was still dangerous being part of a now obsolete Federal Inmate Work Program. He threatened the race card with them. Narrow it down, this person has two restraining orders and a court order–and police refused to help. Against the law. And partially why The Department of Defense took over. A good thing: Jason Baldwin, ex-cop with the Citrus Heights Police Department, receives, with all Walmart employees, no less that 30 years at the harshest of Federal Pennitentiaries–possibly the death penalty as well due also to severe drug use and collaboration with Mary Carr (who impersonated a blonde, fat chick, just to see what it was like being blonde per The Department of Defense). Also involved are Andrew, Tiffany and the City of Citrus Heights, the County of Sacramento, the State of California–Gerald G. (Jerry) Brown’s efforts with Patrick Henning, and no doubt the prosecution of ex-President Barak Obama for his disturbing sexual recording of abusing his own family and me with verbal abuse and prejudicial race remarks, his engagement with guilty Oprah Winfrey over their own prejudice toward one another. Ridiculous. And obviously dangerous, which neither cared about. Obama caught at Ben Baker’s Donuts in Roseville, CA for illegally setting up an illegal broadcast, illegal surveillance with continued cyberstalking. Judge/Justice Clarence Thomas is handling his prosecution.  Every Walmart employee from the Bethany location in Phoenix, Arizona will receive life sentences to the death penalty. Walmart, as of today, with also Jodie Hallowes’s bench warranted and restrained sister Kathleen Mayfield/Hallowes, will close permanently 12/12/15. Other discount stores will be open in the place of it along with Target for Rebekah Makieve, along with her husband “Better than HBO”, Mark MaKieve  sexually orally gratifying themselves feeling people up with cyberstalkive art frames by her, both hunting us down, their death threats–both losing their children to CPS and The Department of Defense for orally sexually gratifying themselves giving oral sex to their children and physically abusing them. How sick does sick get? I guess they want the Laura Linney and her husband incest prize or something–also verified by The Department of Defense. The former Scottsdale cop, again, the death penalty. We’ve begged for our lives and our possessions back; and it’s taken the Department of Defense to get on this currently providing these people what they deserve–the death penalty according to the Federal government, Justices/Judges, and Department of Defense. They did this to us because we have no criminal background, just to see us suffer because they hate talented people; and they can’t handle people succeeding or the thought of it.

Interestingly enough, the impersonations of the criminals, those who continue as the Department of Defense numbers their days, stole my vehicle with other artists’ vehicles and Judge/Justice Sandra Day O’Connor’s vehicle. And all the contents that I could ever have of my late grandfather and his side of the family was in the trunk of my vehicle, along with everything else that I need and needed: clothes, artwork, paints, golf clubs, all my court cases, all my creative notes, some books on them, my novel, second poetry collection (i.e., draft notes) some screenplay notes, playwriting drafts–you name it down to hygiene products. I’ve had nothing but one change of underware since December 1, 2015 and just the clothes on my back. Classmates are involved in this, family members, former apartment managers that are fake people like their fake IRS agent selves, old ex-relations that continue to violate the restraining orders with a court order they’re on. As usual the local fired police keep doing the same thing and are involved in illegally evicting/illegally making us homeless, stealing our vehicles and our animals and the sexual illegality. Those accountable are still in this library as I type this, balling their brains out finally and attempting to save-draft this post; they are nuts in fact as brutal as this barbaric criminal Hallowes false cries for her death. All these cousins. And it took the Department of Defense this long. We wonder if we will see our possessions back, our cars back with all their contents; we are told that we will and our animals. I have two, a female named Chloe who I was forced to give up for adoption; she wouldn’t have made the several non-emergency phone calls that did us in also with the illegal surveillance noise devices police admitted to and so did apartment managers and then  lied when realizing the penalty for what they are involved in. All for nothing, and she was horribly  abused as well. I’m told my cat Tuxedo will be returned to me as well, too. They took everything we had–and are still trying too. Comes the rescue of the Department of Defense. It’s just odd how it’s been handled.

Too long-winded for songwriting discussion, but it helps target these criminals and those at Loaves & Fishes for what they’ve done to us, and to keep them away from us in no matter the creative profession we see–no matter the genre. Next time more specificity on songwriting. Thank you for your support in helping catch these criminals. And thank you for helping us catch a former classmate whose is as sick as they come named Mendy Bates who changed the date to 11/15/15 on my blog post of 11/14/15, who is specifically involved in the missing of all our belongings, vehicles with all contents in them, our animals, all four illegal arrests with ex-police, thwarting, maiming, threatening death, the ficticious name of The Baldwin Company where my vehicle was illegally towed and has helped make our lives a living nightmare. We were instructed to call The Sacramento Fine Arts Center about her and other’s illegally cyberstalking and illegally surveillancing by the Justices/Judges, the Federal government, Courts, and The Department of Defense and were treated horribly by Sharon, the ex-Director. Bates, David Peterson, Jay Bishop, Marie Dixon, Sheila Jacobs, that whole outfit is gutted to where it will open again to a community viable of supporting artists who don’t do this to other artists. Please call the Department of Defense should you come into contact with any of these criminals, especially, too, Mendy Bates cousin to also horrific John Collins  “Constable”–a fake last name and guilty of over 650+ illegal arrests, bank development/credit union development paycheck fraud and lying about 911 phone calls with Joyce Metzger and James Greene, Jim Meanz/Farlane, etc.. Oakmont High School and Eureka Union have been notified as well as Humboldt State University where Bates lied about a full Bachelor’s degree in Art. Bates has been following me since 1986, Pam Jensen/Erickson since 1983, Viggo Mortensen since I was five years old–a setup, heist, planned death event, the Department of Defense calls a public “view to kill” and a massive outtake on one person” and “not just one person”–a taking out of all non-prepared, not knowing they were being followed, up until the point they found out, Federal Permanent Illegal Surveillants.

Please note: Some of these “likes” are Viggo Mortensen’s doing, so that he could obtain a copy for his criminal self and his cousin-criminals, which the Department of Defense has in custody–a long time coming for these people with what the Federal government has said and many others who have been illegally surveillance and cyberstalked by them and absolutely hate him. The Department of Defense is tracing his equipment, so that I can be able to delete  these “likes” of his doing…the fake pictures he created–and than, again, evidence…I rather, however, have them deleted. Who wouldn’t. He is restrained, court-ordered bench-warrant arrested to stay off of my blog with no allowance of printing due to plagiarizing tendencies.

This morning, a cruel reminder about criminals; crime doesn’t discriminate. Viggo Mortensen was seen at 5:30am + in the Cathedral of the Blessed Sacramento impersonating a Catholic Priest/Biship speaking Spanish, thwarting every bit of it, as was Patricia Dianne Bowen, Mary Carr, the ex-relation, Jodie Hallowes, etc. to downgrade what should have been a look-forward-to with the Celebracion Para La Virgen de Guadalupe.(There should be an accent on the”o” of “Celebracion.)

A horrific reminder to all: the ex-police departments are still engaged in boxing us in, driving around stalking us constantly and getting caught while cyberstalking; at minimum today, prior to writing this, adding more details, close proximity…ten units with more threats of illegal arrests and death threats from them per The Department of Defense. You wouldn’t believe the humiliation of two women salivating over seeing me and other Federal Permanent Illegal Surveillants being forced to strip down naked with the 4th illegal detainment held, again, at weapon point for no reason at the ex-Sacramento County Jail in which ex-cops/ex-staff refuse to leave.

Staff, Extended Staff, Clefs, Etc. (Reading Music Notes)…


Today was learning about staff. Music note staff. Extension with staff. The small line you use in order to be able to extend the staff of already line-staff. Lower pitched notes go on the bottom of the staff; and higher-pitched notes go on the top off the staff. Five lines and four spaces prior to line extension with the staff. I found a lot of resource information to study learning more how to read music notes. Groovy. This helps me with the full length play I’m in the process of writing. So it’s treble clef action and bass clef. I tell you, if you learn to read music, you can learn many things artistically: design, shape, expression–and, of course, music, even learn to play an instrument if you haven’t played one before when you’ve just been writing music, per se. At least for me, I think, if I know the notes, it’ll be easier–like anyone else–to play an instrument. I just don’t know what instrument would be easier to play. Probably just pick up an instrument and try it. But learning to read music is somewhat like learning a formula. Like math. Math has formula. Music’s kind of like algebra. The older I get…math is pretty cool. That’s if you can be patient with it. This is going to be kewl…learning reading music. I’ve got some printed blank staff sheets–and access to music symbols, some music dictionaries, and more inclusive music theory. But what’s cool, too, is you don’t have to be extremely skilled in music theory to play music well. This is just me and wanting to learn reading music, writing it for my creative work; and it doesn’t hurt either to learn how to play an instrument. I need to tell myself that. It’s fun writing music. I mentioned earlier that writing music is like writing poetry, as the process is somewhat similar. So we’ll see what happens.  🙂

Learning how to read notes with music…


I started reading, yesterday with a flashlight, in my car, for about fifty-three days, onto fifty-four days, how to read notes for music, albeit the county configurement in some law case pursuits, not yet the County of Placer, which knows it should have awarded me the money needed on the first application. A much needed small claims court case to follow with a supervisor who threatened to illegally set up another illegal arrest for his participation in this illegal surveillance. He’s being processed for jail. Music is a needed intervention, not only listening to it but writing it in song and notes, which to me is like writing poetry, the songwriting that is. Reading about how to read notes is helpful, especially since I have the desire to write music for my plays. Maybe not just plays–for other genres as well. I’ve learned about the treble clef staff and the bass clef staff, their distinguishment, the ascention and descention of the order of notes, higher to lower, etc. This will be interesting in learning more about reading notes since I’ve never really played an instrument but have the desire to. I think, perhaps, for me, the piano may work well with learning how to grasp learning how to read music. I’m on the part of “Rhythm and Note Durations” of an Internet section, as I can’t find a book that I purchased that would help me understand more reading and writing notes for music–thanks to this illegal homelessness situation that the county is also responsible for. I miss my book. It could be with illegal trespassers on future property awarded by the court. These people who trespassed, ex-cops and, get this, a phony real estate agent who set up a horrifying perpetrating act with Viggo Mortensen that’s a lead into bringing in maybe almost as much as thirty ex-officers, etc. have been caught for cyberharassment, cyberstalking, physical on foot threats with the “cousin-clan” of past neighbors who are still dressing up in prosthetics for cyberstalking and continue to do so even with the State Laws and Statutes and the Federal government on them. It’s amazing the disrespect people have for the judicial system, and with my experiences I should be the first to walk away from the judicial system with the past judges I’ve had. Oh, by the way, insofar, all the corrupt judges, including ex-judge Jenny Rivera who stopped a train electronically, remotely, has made a total a$$ out of herself, too. Witnesses also to her cyberstalking is something else. She’s fifty-four and her career is shot. I’ve never met so many ridiculously stupid judges in my life. She’s infiltrated so many business and well…supported so many criminals who enjoy threatening my life and the judges on my court cases. This gal deserves a posted photo on her criminal account with the other hardened ex-judicial figures. Let’s see if she shows up for court. I’m embarrassed to have even known her. I can’t imagine what the judges on my court cases think. Should make for some interesting writing. Who knows? But the good thing is that I’ve had the good fortune of experiencing better judicial tact, that with the aligned judges on my court cases and helping to stop this illegal surveillance. It’s just taking forever. They, like me, and others hate Teas bands and cyberstalking and what people have done to myself, themselves, and others.

I’d rather keep the judicial themes to different genres; yet some themes may enter
the songwriting craft. So I’m reading up on what the Whole Note, Half Note, Quarter Note,
Eight Note, and Sixteenth Note are. I’ve learned also about “Accidental” notes, the “b” and the “#.” There’s no music symbol for the “b” on this computer keypad that I’m typing this post. A beginning into writing my own music and enjoying it. Thank God for art! 🙂

With the illegal “being broke” situation makes for even more hardship even for my cat, Tuxedo; he’s a trooper and very patient. But it’s taking a toll on the both of us, so we’ll see what happens. Back to the county manana; and the judicial revampment of the court system and systems. Get this: Judge Thomas verified that Olivia Newton-John shot at me with an illegal surveillance air BB-gun. God knows that everyone knows that Viggo Mortensen has earned his share of judicial prison placement along with others illegally surveillancing me. Mortensen continues with her violating the restraining order on them with ex-apartment managers cyberstalking to cybersyphening my gasoline tank. What possesses already successful people who screwed over their careers with illegally surveillancing a newbie, and I’m not an actor. It’s Placer County not Los Angeles. I’m not new to my work being published, but the major works have just begun…and I’m still trying to get them because of these people. NUTS! Onward! 🙂

Dance, art, and Spanish music as storytelling…


Concurrent with working on a full length Spanish-based play, in terms of art, selection of music, and its setting in New Mexico, I’ve been thinking about what music to include due to having a character who wants to return to playing the guitar. I’ve researched and thought about historic and contemporary compositions–Spanish and America songs played on a flamenco guitar and acoustic guitar. Some of the Spanish artists I’d like to include in the play are Juan Martinez Montanes and Diego Velazquez, Montanes known as a sculptor/artist and Velazquez a painter. The play deals with, again, a family dynamic in which a few of the characters have artistic interests, the father, the guitar, and the daughter painting. I have yet to fully decided on what selections of their art to configure, as I’m still working on the script-and I want to also research more the area and the state of New Mexico. Some of the play deals with seventeenth century Baroque; yet most of the music and art researched is derived specifically from Spain. I find is fascinating American music played on a Spanish guitar, and plan to include some of it as well in the play. It’ll be interesting finding a musician or an actor/musician for the play, which I’m hoping to do. I’ve listened to both female and male Spanish guitar players–and it’s amazing the music produced and how little attention it gets, at least in my own discovery of it. Listening to the Spanish guitar played by artist Ana Vidovic with “Recital and Interview” and the variety of Michael Hauser and Paco de Lucia, for example, has been a learning and inspiring experience for thinking about employing the Spanish guitar into the play–not only the generality of it but how classic it really is. I’m also considering a scene with Spanish dance in which I am still researching. The costumes are incredible in the way they tell a story. Dance, the gesture-movements, and whether structured choreographically and/or improvisational-wise, are as equivalent to reading a story; it’s that good, especially looking into flamenco dance–the technique of prepared body awareness and the focus of the art. I was really taken with the costume styles, anatomical expressions, and rhythmic forms from the Zorongo Flamenco’s website. What the studio offers is the opportunity for the community and public to look at music and dance as personal enrichment and a way to gain skill in the enjoyment of dancing while telling a story. Dance, as an art, profiles a much needed sector in American life. So I’m very much looking forward to continuing drafting this play and to see where it takes me–and I’m not even a dancer. Onward! 🙂

Something about songwriting…


The one genre that centers me–and seems to bring me back into focus is poetry. About three years ago, I started thinking more about writing songs: lyrics. I don’t play an instrument; and I can’t sing. But I really like writing and music; so I started thinking about writing songs more seriously. And dabbled. I didn’t expect much to come from writing songs, but from the four poems that took a U-turn on me, one was accepted at a recording studio/music publishing company. I hadn’t written any songs before, so it was shot-in-the-dark. Interestingly enough, however, songwriting is like poetry. I need to work more on separating, though, structure, even in diverse poetry and just let the lyrics develop as they develop. The song that was accepted is called “What I Want to Say;” and although it needs to be re-mixed, it has some potential. Music is also key to inspiring me to write–whether it’s a novel, a play, drafting poetry, a screenplay, or simply under-painting and painting in whatever medium that I feel. Perhaps, music, itself, is what drove me to attempt to even want to write songs in the first place. Writing is essential; and what songwriting has taught me, in terms of being newly introduced to songwriting, is how very intimate and vulnerable it makes me feel, but, at the same time, it doesn’t make me vulnerable with focusing on what can be intimately fearful but positively necessary and imaginable. I’m looking forward to writing more songs and the drafting process of songwriting.